I don’t read this blog, but…


Sunday — November 27th, 2011

Hi Xyliacs!

Sorry I missed last week…but…. you know.  Well, some of you do.

I know that there are people out there that don’t get why I even update this site at all if I’m not putting up comic pages, but it’s really just for that handful of you who really seem to care what’s going on, and not just: ‘Where is my comic!  I want my comic now!  My free comic, that I somehow feel entitled to!!’ Oops.  Did I type that out loud?

Seriously though, there was another one of those comments posted on my last blog, and the thing that I found a bit frustrating is when people say, “I don’t read the blog, but why is there no comic here?”  And sometimes not in such friendly ways. (Those comments I don’t approve because I don’t have to if I don’t want to.  Nyeaah.)

In summation, to anyone out there who is going to ask this question again, here’s the deal- I’m a mom first and foremost- and as a single parent, I have to do that primarily on my own with no real support.  Granted, my kids are getting pretty self sufficient, but I still spend a great deal of time with and for them.  I run a household alone (if you don’t know what that means see taking care of home,  paying bills, taking care of cars etc…etc..).  I have my own freelance business which has become quite busy,  and work a second job.  My parents are older and I try to spend time with them as much as possible.  I also work out regularly (ideally 5 times a week) to ward off fat but primarily to keep my BP down and keep my health and sanity.  Additionally, I deal with occasional  bouts of depression that makes everything I mentioned above go slower at best – or completely shut down at worst.  Somewhere in all this, I do try to spend some time socializing with friends and dating too.  Cause, well…uh  I think I kind of deserve that.

Now. If you are coming here and asking “WHERE IS MY COMIC FIX?  WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH THIS WOMAN?”   please read through the above and locate out of that the EXTRA 16 hours that I will need to get just one page of the Xylia webcomic up on the site. I’ve looked for those hours, and I have been having trouble finding them.

THAT’S why Xylia has not been updating.

Sorry for that rant, Xyliacs, but I wanted to post a blog that I could refer these people to in the future to read so they can get their questions answered without me having to work for it, since THEY aren’t willing to work for figuring it out.

So, where was I?  Oh yes.  I hope all of you here stateside had a very nice Thanksgiving holiday.  If you’re like me (and I really hope you aren’t ;) holidays are a real challenging time.  I forget that this is so sometimes, and then they sneak up and do a leg sweep and knock me on my butt.  Which is what happened this year.  The first half of my Thanksgiving day was an unpleasant one, but the last half was nice. Until I ate way too much and felt like the Goodyear blimp. But anyway.  I know some of you are dealing with difficult times this year, and I hope that you were able to find some support and love.

Enough on that, how about Xylia?  Well, my busy time has ramped up even further.  So much so that I am not getting to the gym or seeing friends as much as I would like.  As much as I WANT to work on Xylia, the back burner is where it stays for now until the holiday orders are done.  It’s a matter of me finding a schedule for it, but I just haven’t figured that out.  I am really anxious to tell the story- I think you will like it- I do. *frustrated…*

I’m sorry to keep everyone waiting so long, sometimes I wonder if I should just shut the site down so that people won’t wonder any more, and then bring it back when I finally can, but I hate to do that too.   What are your thoughts, Xyliacs?

Thank you again for visiting the site, and again I apologize for the way things are, but most of it is out of my hands right now.

————–Response to November 14, 2011————–

Miamistax:  :) your comments about the sketches made me smile- I think you need to go back and read chapter 1 of Xylia. ;)   Thank you for your kind words on the ‘chicken scratchy’ sketches of mine… and Happy Thanksgiving to you as well. :)

Meridian:  “can I ask what’s happened to this comic? I haven’t been here for more than a year, because it just wasn’t getting anywhere.”  My response to your inquiry is above. Since you ‘rarely read the blog’ it’s something you wouldn’t know, so I’m helping you out.  (Course if you don’t read the blog… you won’t see this, so why did I bother? hmm….)

Nathaniel: Sounds like you are getting a good work out!   I actually do several different types of exercise when I have the time, which I don’t right now. Alternating 4 mile jogs at 6.5 mph with sprinting interval days (going up to 10 mph. ) My knees can’t handle that all the time though, so sometimes I do elliptical training.  When I’m not so flipping busy, my weight training is an hour long class 3x a week (ideally) with high reps.  And I also try to get in a 15 minute pilates core workout- as often as possible. If I had LOTS of time, I would do yoga a couple times a week too.   But right now it’s all about my art jobs though, and it’s very hard to get the exercise in.  “…which will also make a healthier heart than running”.   Running is more for my mind than anything, but I’m not too worried about heart health right now: my resting heart rate is 42 (I’m shooting for 35) , my bp is 118/65. I had a complete heart work up a couple years ago (before I was in this kind of shape) and was told I had the heart of a 20 year old. Not shabby for 46.

Francisco: I hope your new job is going well!  And yes, that was Ambrosia in the pic. ;)

Skewered Viewpoint: I do hope Thanksgiving was all right for you this year.  I thought about you quite a bit. And yeah, the schedule is going pretty nuts. ;)

Canterrain:  thank you for your response to Meridian before I had time to blog.  And thank you also for the nice words about the sketch of Charlie- you are pretty much spot on catching the gist of the image.

Joe: Yeah, sorry this is late!  Bosslady had to be the boss of a lot of non Xylia stuff.. adnt heat will only continue…

Ayshara: Glad that your sister is doing well.  Sorry I misread your other post.

Julie: I hope you had a great Thanksgiving as well!  I am hoping that we can work together on some more of your characters in the future! ^_^

Jamming: but you ARE great as fans. :)

Thanks all, I hope to post more regularly soon, but I can’t make promises in December.  Is what it is.  :)

Hugs, B

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02/21/2010


———————-Sneak peek————————-
Today’s preliminary is a little more than a sketch… ^_^

———————-Barblog———————————-
Today Barb is mired in Funkytown so the blog is very short.

One happy thing to mention is that I got a color test printed of the cover of Xyliatales Volume I. Yay!

Also, I finally responded to all of your nice comments on the previous updates- I’m sorry to take so long.

————————Odds and Ends————————-
Xyliatales On Air will be broadcasting on Sundays, along with the occasional last minute broadcast! (Just had a fun one last Thursday night!). I’m going to try for a regular time- like 7PM CST. I know some of you will find that an inconvenient time in other parts of the world- hopefully it will work for some of you! XYLIATALES ON AIR TALK SHOW SITE

Remember, you can follow my announcements on Twitter

Or consider friending me on Facebook- just make sure to let me know that you are a Xyliac when you send the request.

——————–XYLIA GOODY BAG——————
Please consider donating for the cause! I plan on adding new things in the coming weeks- first I will be creating a series of hi resolution downloadable character cards, with profile images and bio information! In the meantime, browse our existing wallpapers and other things. As always if you don’t receive your download, please email me directly at bji2001(at)mchsi.com.

Most of the other incentives are still available for $2.00 – $10.00 amounts, including the nude faeiries (if you are 18+)! Get em while they’re hot (always)! ^_^

See you all on Wednesday!

Hugs,

~B

 

02/14/2010


Hello, Xyliacs! Happy Day After Valentine’s Day!

———————-Sneak peek————————-
Today’s preliminary for Wednesday’s page is an in process panel of April and December wearing some distinctive expressions!

I wanted to thank everyone for visiting our update on Wednesday and for all of the comments! I’m sorry I haven’t responded yet- I will do that when I return home from a morning caricature booking. I promise! Sorry for the delay.

—————————TWC————————–
We are holding steady in the 40′s at TWC- let’s see if we can bump that up this week! I will post a new incentive on Wednesday, too. Today’s pic is one I posted a year or more ago- of the mysterious White Twins, Damara and Dalia…

———————–XYLIATALES NEWS!!————————
I am beyond excited to announce that as of last Friday, Azloe Publishing is a real official publisher. I purchased a block of ISBN numbers and an SN number, making my company the real deal and so that means that Xyliatales Volume I can be sold in the big stores like B&N and Amazon. I just gotta pitch it!

I’m also to excited to announce that my old friend, writer Steven Jones is writing the foreword to the Xyliatales book.

Also, news about a show appearance coming soon- where you won’t only see me but KEZ TOO?!! REALLY?? Stay tuned….

———————-Barblog———————————-

For several years, there were a few dates that I dreaded. Divorce does that to you. Especially in my peculiar type of situation where the breakup comes out of no where (not just for me, but for everyone that knew us and our kids) like an Acme safe falling out of the sky. The wedding anniversary, birthdays, and holidays. Over time, some of these got a little less painful to spend alone, but Valentine’s Day was always a tough one. I know some of you know what I mean. (Just listen to the song, “Love Stinks”.)

I know these days are perpetrated upon us by the card companies, candy manufacturers, florists, etc. I know this. Logically. Silly secular holidays trying to get you to buy crap. And yet, it’s still that day where the spotlight is placed upon coupleness. The world seems to be designed for couples. When you are single, this is excruciatingly obvious. Some folks don’t care, and that’s great. I tried really hard to not care. But I did. I suppose being in a relationship for eighteen years did that, I don’t know.

But this year, I wasn’t alone anymore. Even though I love someone eight thousand miles away. I’m not alone. And I feel really blessed to have this amazing, wonderful man in my life, especially because I had resigned myself to the fact that being single was going to be my fate forever. I was wrong about that.

So, if you are out there flying solo, bravely scorning days like Valentine’s Day, saying “I WANT to be single” but secretly feeling heartbroken and alone, I can promise you that things can change. They really can. I never believed it- had become bitter to the ‘when you’re not looking’ stories people would tell, but I admit it now and in this public forum, they were right. ;-) (Remember this, Josh, because I don’t say those words very often. LOL!)

————————Odds and Ends————————-
Xyliatales On Air will be broadcasting on Sundays, along with the occasional last minute broadcast! (Just had a fun one last Thursday night!). I’m going to try for a regular time- like 7PM CST. I know some of you will find that an inconvenient time in other parts of the world- hopefully it will work for some of you! XYLIATALES ON AIR TALK SHOW SITE

Remember, you can follow my announcements on Twitter

Or consider friending me on Facebook- just make sure to let me know that you are a Xyliac when you send the request.

——————–XYLIA GOODY BAG——————
Please consider donating for the cause! I plan on adding new things in the coming weeks- first I will be creating a series of hi resolution downloadable character cards, with profile images and bio information! In the meantime, browse our existing wallpapers and other things. As always if you don’t receive your download, please email me directly at bji2001(at)mchsi.com.

We are now tallying the donations- if we get to $300.00 – it’s two updates the following week!!

Happy rest of February, everyone, I will see you Wednesday! Remember to check back to the previous page for my comment responses.

Hugs,

~B

 

02/08/2010


Hello, Xyliacs! Greetings from snowy Iowa!

———————-Sneak peek————————-
Today’s preliminary from Wednesday’s is the an in progress panel of April!
—————————TWC————————–
Thank you EVERYONE for getting us up the rankings on the Webcomic List. We’ve been holding steady in the forties for a while now! Thanks for your votes!! New incentive up today- this is a very old concept drawing (like from two years ago…) of a scene that is coming up in a bit …

———————–XYLIATALES NEWS!!————————
Also want to remind you again that Tall Tale Features has a new design and layout with great new content! Norm Feuti, creator of Retail has a really cool ‘how-to’ entry of how he creates his syndicated comic on the TTF website!
———————-Barblog———————————-

Sorry this post is late, folks- I was at a Superbowl Party last night, and pretty incoherent- NO I WAS NOT DRINKING- just one beer! But I’ve been having these nasty arrhythmia/vertigo things almost daily and had a particularly annoying bout when I got home- it was like the computer screen was spinning last night. This morning was shoveling- but now at last I am at the computer and posting!

Creating a webcomic is kind of a crazy thing. But when you’re a forty something mom- it’s even more peculiar. It often makes me question my sanity. I’ve been doing this webcomic gig for some five years now- trying to figure out how to keep doing this thing I love to do, and other people seem to like, and still survive.

It’s never been an easy thing. Worth it? I hope so. But the greatest joy I get from working on stories is not the actual creation of them- although I truly enjoy that (as long as my stress level allows me to) but in the knowing that other people are enjoying it. To me, art doesn’t really ‘live’ if it exists in a vacuum. Playing in a band in the basement… drawing in sketchbooks that never see light of day….writing stories that no one reads…it isn’t until these things are shared that they really come to life.

This is my rambling way of saying *thank you* to all of you who read Xyliatales, for those of you who take the time to write and share your thoughts, and of course those of you who are able to help out with donations and purchases. I hope that this year is XYlia’s best year yet!

————————Odds and Ends————————-
Xyliatales On Air will be broadcasting on Sundays, along with the occasional last minute broadcast! (Just had a fun one last Thursday night!). I’m going to try for a regular time- like 7PM CST. I know some of you will find that an inconvenient time in other parts of the world- hopefully it will work for some of you! XYLIATALES ON AIR TALK SHOW SITE

Remember, you can follow my announcements on Twitter

Or consider friending me on Facebook- just make sure to let me know that you are a Xyliac when you send the request.

——————–XYLIA GOODY BAG——————
Please consider donating for the cause! I plan on adding new things in the coming weeks- first I will be creating a series of hi resolution downloadable character cards, with profile images and bio information! In the meantime, browse our existing wallpapers and other things. As always if you don’t receive your download, please email me directly at bji2001(at)mchsi.com.

Thank you all for visiting! Remember, that I love comments, and your feedback keeps me goin’ on this cold winter nights in Iowa!

Hugs,

~B

 

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01/31/2010


Hello, Xyliacs!

———————-Sneak peek————————-
Today’s preliminary for Wednesday is a sketchy sketch of one of our new characters just walkin’ along. And then a hand. What is that IN her hand? Hmm… we shall have to wait n see.

—————————TWC————————–
Thank you EVERYONE for getting us up the rankings on the Webcomic List. We started out in the 130′s and ended up in the 70′s. To kick off the new month, today’s TWC incentive is a look at the cover of the upcoming Xyliatales graphic novel Volume I!

———————–XYLIATALES NEWS!!————————
Also want to remind you that Tall Tale Features is kicking off our new web design today (February 1!)! Don’t miss it!
Irma Erikkson of Imy is cooking up a fantabulous site design! A few of us do a review of Rival Angels! Come see the hubbub!

———————-Barblog———————————-

Today I’m going to delve into a subject that would fall into that ‘heavy’ category- (if we had a laugh track at Xyliatales, they would probably shut it off. ;-)

I was actually going to post this blog a week ago. I wrote it after personally coming out of a rather intense funk also known as a depression episode, but ‘chickened out’ again (very hypocritical of me, you will see when you read this blog… A few days ago, I was told of the suicide of one of my good friends’ old high school classmates: a nice local guy, a dad with two adolescent kids, a guy smiling in his Facebook photos-some as recent as two weeks ago- and realized that here again was another person suffering in silence…another person who gave up. ANOTHER person who was maybe too ashamed to get help. So I’m posting this blog. Now.

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In the past, I used to blog about my personal challenges of dealing with depression. This is something I feel very strongly about discussing openly for a number of reasons, but I had stopped, because of someone using the stigmas and fears that I was trying to combat: I had my depression thrown at me in an extortionistic way. Essentially: “You better hope they don’t find out how ‘crazy’ you are”. I let a cruel threat stop me from being open and honest and sharing information with others for fear it could be used against me .

Well, I’m done with that. That’s exactly the kind of crap I want to fight against.

I had decided years ago when I was diagnosed with chronic depression that I was going to become a one woman wrecking crew against the stigma of mental illnesses- fighting against the dark ages mentality that promotes the shoving of conversation about depression, OCD, or bipolarity into dark closets or denying its existence for fear of being shunned or mocked or labeled. I can’t tell you how many people through the years I have talked into seeking help and support- people to whom I frankly admitted- “hey, guess what, I deal with this too” to which I am frequently met with shocked looks. “How can she have depression? She doesn’t LOOK like she does…” And that’s when I realized that my openness about the subject could actually help people, who, like I had been, were afraid to step out of the shadows and seek help because of the fear of being socially unaccepted.

Here’s the thing. Depression- OCD – manic depression- it’s not us- the people who deal with it. It’s a separate thing. It doesn’t mean we are weak of character or less of a person. Something impossibly hard to remember when you’re ‘there’. It means that we are dealing with a condition, and like any other condition, if ignored or left to grow, can often expand into something quite debilitating.

One of the best fuels for depression is the darkness of ignorance. Not talking about it. Letting it grow and inflame silently until it bowls you under. The more the subject remains taboo, or maligned, the more it’s fostered.

What I ask of you dear readers is that you help me in creating a world where it’s safe to get well. To not be ashamed if we need help for these illnesses, any more than we would be if we were diabetic, or fighting cancer.

If you suspect you may have symptoms of depression or any anxiety disorder, please talk to your family physician. If you are uninsured, there are many charities that offer sliding scales that will help make payment options affordable. Talk to a friend. Most of all, face it head on, and don’t feel shame in needing help.

If you have a friend or family member you think needs help, it can be exhausting, frightening, and even frustrating, because most psychological illness is at it’s root irrational. Try to encourage them to seek professional help. If you can, quietly listen without being judging, and let them know that you don’t blame them for how they feel. If you are willing to go the distance and really be a support person, know that this is a huge responsibility and you need to take good care of yourself if you take it on. For information on supporting a loved one with mental illness, here is a good start.

For more information on the topic of depression, and other anxiety disorders, here is a website with overview and links:

If you (or you suspect a loved one) are contemplating suicide, seek help immediately.
1-800-273-TALK (8255) A voice in the darkness can save lives.

~Thank you.

————————Odds and Ends————————-
Xyliatales On Air will be broadcasting on Sundays, along with the occasional last minute broadcast! (Just had a fun one last Thursday night!). I’m going to try for a regular time- like 7PM CST. I know some of you will find that an inconvenient time in other parts of the world- hopefully it will work for some of you! XYLIATALES ON AIR TALK SHOW SITE

Remember, you can follow my announcements on Twitter

Or consider friending me on Facebook- just make sure to let me know that you are a Xyliac when you send the request.

——————–XYLIA GOODY BAG——————

Please consider donating for the cause! I plan on adding new things in the coming weeks- first I will be creating a series of hi resolution downloadable character cards, with profile images and bio information! In the meantime, browse our existing wallpapers and other things. As always if you don’t receive your download, please email me directly at bji2001(at)mchsi.com.

Thank you all for visiting! Remember, that I love comments, and your feedback keeps me goin’ on this cold winter nights in Iowa!

Hugs,

~B